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Is the song DH is blasting on his iPhone right now as I post. I love that song, it is filled with strength. When I was little our old home had a half wall which housed my parents' boom box and it was always cued up to Eye of the Tiger which I could sing in its entirety when I was 3. Now I can play it perfectly both on the drums and guitar (not at the same time) in rockband! Good times.
Looks like baby making is on the back burner for now as I alternate between feeling the mood of Eye of the Tiger and despair. DH's second CT scan came back yesterday and things aren't good. They are telling us he has lesions on his liver (he doesn't drink BTW), has a hernia and a thickening of his colon (perhaps TMI?) and NONE of those explain the extreme pain he has been in for 3 days now. Now we have to wait out the weekend while his doc decides what the next steps are. Looks like surgery is in DH's not too distant future. This has been the longest week of my life and the most worrysome.
Today I am going to work on a happy post just for my own sanity and mental health....
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
What a couple of days
It's been an emotional couple of days worrying about DH and trying to get him quality health care. Yesterday, the ER was a process at best. The doctors were nice but they couldn't figure anything out and I felt useless and upset.
Today we went to DH's real doctor. I absolutely love that man. If his office wasn't an hour away from our house I would go to him. He actually listens to everything we say, he asks insightful questions, has a great sense of humor (and the best ties), and always makes us feel like he has a handle on what is going on. Today was no exception. He has ordered further tests and gave a probable diagnosis that is manageable. When I left and immediately Googled the diagnosis on WebMD it sounded just like what he's going through.
Tomorrow my father is doing to take DH to the test so I can work one day this week. It wouldn't be a big deal but one of my student's moved and tomorrow is her last day and I feel the need to be there to say goodbye and wish her well. I am lucky to have such supportive parents and I am hoping by noon tomorrow We will know what is up with DH and what our next steps are. For now, I am content and I will hopefully get a full night's sleep. That is if the new kitten (Patek) lets me sleep past 3am. :-)
Today we went to DH's real doctor. I absolutely love that man. If his office wasn't an hour away from our house I would go to him. He actually listens to everything we say, he asks insightful questions, has a great sense of humor (and the best ties), and always makes us feel like he has a handle on what is going on. Today was no exception. He has ordered further tests and gave a probable diagnosis that is manageable. When I left and immediately Googled the diagnosis on WebMD it sounded just like what he's going through.
Tomorrow my father is doing to take DH to the test so I can work one day this week. It wouldn't be a big deal but one of my student's moved and tomorrow is her last day and I feel the need to be there to say goodbye and wish her well. I am lucky to have such supportive parents and I am hoping by noon tomorrow We will know what is up with DH and what our next steps are. For now, I am content and I will hopefully get a full night's sleep. That is if the new kitten (Patek) lets me sleep past 3am. :-)
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Emergency Room Visit
I've had no time to think this week let alone blog or communicate with anyone and today, tomorrow and Friday were supposed to be the busiest days of the week.... until I was forced to take a time out.
There I was, sitting in the hallway with one of my students this morning. I had a half day sub to get all my report card testing done. We were going over the numbers to 100 when a PARENT who sometimes subs in the office came down. She saw me testing and bent down next to me and said (in NOT a whisper) you husband just called the office. I laughed because he NEVER calls the office, I always have my cell on me. I asked "Why is there something wrong?" and she replied "he's on his way to the emergency room but he said you didn't have to go." (Do you see what is wrong with this picture- first of all a PARENT took the call in the office not even school personnel, second she told me bad news IN FRONT OF A CHILD). Without a word I got up and walked into my room. I know my student was wondering what my problem was but I had to find my cell phone and talk to him and see what the hell was going on. My cell was in the car.
In about 10 minutes I did subplans for the entire day, got someone to take my drama class (40 kids whose parents were unreachable!) and headed to the hospital. On the way there I saw an accident but that just meant I was able to fly to the E room to see him. I got there and was brought up to speed and opened up my calendar so I could call work and cancel meetings/appointments/clubs for today. When I opened it up all my calendar info for today and tomorrow were blank. I KNOW I had at least 5 things a day planned but for the life of me it was blank.
I am taking my blank calendar as a sign (I am sure it's just a tech glitch but I need a sign) that I need to take the next few days and help DH to get better. I need to remember what is important and that is him and our family, small as it is. It is hard for me to let go at work especially with report cards, and nbpts but I NEED to be here.
Also they didn't even diagnose him with anything. They told my husband who had a BAG OF MORPHINE in him and was STILL doubled over in pain to go home and see if anything changes. He is sleeping right now and I am doing the pacing he wouldn't let me do at the hospital and hoping things change for the better, not the worse or else it will be a long night in the ER because next time I am not leaving until I have answers.
There I was, sitting in the hallway with one of my students this morning. I had a half day sub to get all my report card testing done. We were going over the numbers to 100 when a PARENT who sometimes subs in the office came down. She saw me testing and bent down next to me and said (in NOT a whisper) you husband just called the office. I laughed because he NEVER calls the office, I always have my cell on me. I asked "Why is there something wrong?" and she replied "he's on his way to the emergency room but he said you didn't have to go." (Do you see what is wrong with this picture- first of all a PARENT took the call in the office not even school personnel, second she told me bad news IN FRONT OF A CHILD). Without a word I got up and walked into my room. I know my student was wondering what my problem was but I had to find my cell phone and talk to him and see what the hell was going on. My cell was in the car.
In about 10 minutes I did subplans for the entire day, got someone to take my drama class (40 kids whose parents were unreachable!) and headed to the hospital. On the way there I saw an accident but that just meant I was able to fly to the E room to see him. I got there and was brought up to speed and opened up my calendar so I could call work and cancel meetings/appointments/clubs for today. When I opened it up all my calendar info for today and tomorrow were blank. I KNOW I had at least 5 things a day planned but for the life of me it was blank.
I am taking my blank calendar as a sign (I am sure it's just a tech glitch but I need a sign) that I need to take the next few days and help DH to get better. I need to remember what is important and that is him and our family, small as it is. It is hard for me to let go at work especially with report cards, and nbpts but I NEED to be here.
Also they didn't even diagnose him with anything. They told my husband who had a BAG OF MORPHINE in him and was STILL doubled over in pain to go home and see if anything changes. He is sleeping right now and I am doing the pacing he wouldn't let me do at the hospital and hoping things change for the better, not the worse or else it will be a long night in the ER because next time I am not leaving until I have answers.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Show and Tell
This week I am participating in Mel's Show and Tell. Click here to see what others are showing!
I woke up this morning and DH smiled at me and said "Happy Adoption Day!" We went and picked up our new kitty this morning. :-)
At the shelter he was super friendly, showing his belly and going straight into the carrier. Now that he's home he is much more shy and hiding under DH's bureau. The puppies are being kept downstairs until he adjusts. We are looking for a name for our new guy- any suggestions?!
Friday, February 27, 2009
#100
This is my 100th post!! That is an exciting milestone. :-)
Everything always looks better on Friday afternoons at 3:00. Today was no exception. The stress and pressure I've been feeling all week went away this afternoon and I was able to enjoy a few hours with my husband out and about town.
We talked more about the kitties we saw last Saturday and DH called the shelter and our two babies are still there. We are going over on Sunday to meet them again and to play with them. Last Saturday they were too new to the shelter and wouldn't come out. I *think* we are going to be bringing them home Sunday too.... we will see!
My 100th post, no school tomorrow, and possibly new fur babies! Will post pictures if (when) they come home. Now it's off to do some writing for NBPTC- last group meeting tomorrow, it will all be over in less than a month (am both pleased and panicked about that).
Happy Friday!
Everything always looks better on Friday afternoons at 3:00. Today was no exception. The stress and pressure I've been feeling all week went away this afternoon and I was able to enjoy a few hours with my husband out and about town.
We talked more about the kitties we saw last Saturday and DH called the shelter and our two babies are still there. We are going over on Sunday to meet them again and to play with them. Last Saturday they were too new to the shelter and wouldn't come out. I *think* we are going to be bringing them home Sunday too.... we will see!
My 100th post, no school tomorrow, and possibly new fur babies! Will post pictures if (when) they come home. Now it's off to do some writing for NBPTC- last group meeting tomorrow, it will all be over in less than a month (am both pleased and panicked about that).
Happy Friday!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
If I were normal...
Then I should have begun my period today. Instead my FF says that perhaps I am fertile again due to my temps. I am feeling really frustrated about this whole charting thing, I don't even understand what it should look like and what I am waiting for. I have had minimal fluctuation in temps ;the biggest one coming with my new thermometer (which I had to buy when my dog ate the first one) But seriously... does temping even WORK for someone with PCOS?!
DH and I want to try to do things as naturally as possible and from all the reading I've done the first step is learning my cycle. I am just really frustrated and perhaps I joined FF too soon because it's just giving me hope when I have no right to have hope at this point. And the worse part is, the closer it gets to the period FF thinks I *should* have the more obsessed I become with every little thing happening with my body.
Aughhh I am frustrated today. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. This weekend we are going out though with one of our many pregnant couple friends. I jokingly said to DH that I will be sharing a pitcher of margaritas with H and he got mad saying she was pregnant but that was my whole point. Then I get to drink them all.
DH and I want to try to do things as naturally as possible and from all the reading I've done the first step is learning my cycle. I am just really frustrated and perhaps I joined FF too soon because it's just giving me hope when I have no right to have hope at this point. And the worse part is, the closer it gets to the period FF thinks I *should* have the more obsessed I become with every little thing happening with my body.
Aughhh I am frustrated today. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. This weekend we are going out though with one of our many pregnant couple friends. I jokingly said to DH that I will be sharing a pitcher of margaritas with H and he got mad saying she was pregnant but that was my whole point. Then I get to drink them all.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Terrific Tuesdays OOPS!
Well I wrote my last post and totally forgot it is Terrific Tuesday!
Today was terrific because...
Today was terrific because...
- I got lots done on my NBPT writing- I am best when I am busy!
- I sang Mama Mia! songs all the way to work. I rocked!!
- My kiddos were all back today (many absent yesterday due to storm and late start)
- Drama club is in full swing and I finished casting.
- Some of my students colored George Washington brown today arguing that Barack Obama has skin that color why can't George Washington. I appreciated the logic even if it didn't fit with history.
- I finally said NO to being on a committee. My colleagues looked shocked but I put my foot down and said I didn't have time.
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