1 year ago today...

(Pregnancy mentioned)

What a different place I was in then. I had to take the day off from my summer job to go and see the RE for the first time. What a wreck I was at that appointment. They weighed me and it was 30 pounds off so that's when the tears began. DH couldn't believe I was blubbering over my weight but I felt so out of control of my body at that point and my weight was something I *thought* I had a handle on. (In regards to my weight, I just passed the weight I was a year ago when I was my heaviest (without the added 30lbs) and now I have a little Goober growing so I thought that was pretty good at 23 weeks!)

Man what a day that was. I went through the emotional wringer for sure but I couldn't have asked for better guides. My RE was SUPER. He got paged twice while in with me and just turned off his beeper and focused on my myriad of questions and concerns. DH held my hand the whole time and assured me we'd get through this. Pregnancy seemed like a lost dream at that point in my life, and here I am, 1 week from the baby getting to the point of viability. It just seems like so much has happened in this year.

When I realized the date today I had a small meltdown. Then I thought to myself, it's all working out, why get upset, each minute, day, week, that goes by, this baby is getting bigger and stronger, and harryier (the heartburn is a killer). I finally let DH purchase a stroller. This was our first major baby purchase and it felt so nice to receive it, but scary at the same time. I do keep waiting for this dream to come to an end... I am working on the fact that it's OK to think that everything will turn out right and it's OK to think that the mean doctors (who I quit) were wrong, and that I will be able to carry this baby to term and give it a wonderful, healthy and happy life.

What a difference a year makes.

Anniversary and Back To Work

On July 4th we celebrated our second wedding anniversary. :-) We celebrated by getting a replica of our wedding cake (we did this last year as well), visiting family and friends, and then ending the evening with a nice romantic dinner at our favorite restaurant. It was a happy but very busy day! There are some advantages to having your anniversary on a major holiday- you always have it off, everyone you love has it off, and there are lots of opportunities for celebration. There are some downsides to it as well... everyone you know has it off and they all want a little piece of the celebration! By the end of the weekend we were exhausted and if I don't see another wedding cake until next July 4th that will be just fine! :-) It was a great day though and DH and I were able to remember our wedding day, and all the reasons we are together still. It was strengthened this year thinking about all we've come through and done togehter, and looking ahead to our Goober arriving in 4 1/2 months. Oh yeah- and our wedding anniversary was exactly halfway through our pregnancy. How's that for celebration?!

Now I am back to work though. I can't complain, I make a ton of money in a really short amount of time. I am just beyond burnt out and was needing a vacation. Only 3 more weeks of summer school though and I am taking the first two weeks in August for just me. Usually DH will take a week off but not this year, he's saving up for the fall when I'll need him around. I appreciate that but I do wish we could have one last hurrah of just the two of us this summer. Working on making a long weekend of something.... maybe NYC or Boston. He wants to go to D.C. but by the time we get down there after work on a Friday it would be 2am and then to leave first thing Sunday morning.... sounds like a vacation in the car... and my car is not made for vacationing in! I am sure we will work it out. I am using my hotwire magic to see what deals pop up over the next few weekends.

Anyway, long story short, things have been insanely busy, we celebrated our anniversary, I am back to work, looking for a weekend get away, and am commiting myself to catching up on reading all the blogs I've missed over the last couple of weeks since I have Friday off. Hope all is well with you!